O'LORD...

Heavenly Lord, our God, our Father in Heaven and on earth and universes untold...

I first must thank You for Your loving-kindnesses and patience toward me that largely I cannot even fathom. I know my shortcomings... so I also know You are aware also. Yet the blood of my Savior stands fast with a power to wipe all my sins away. I recognize this mainly in Your Honor, O'LORD. There is nothing within me that could produce such love and power and ability to forgive as what You've graciously given me.

Secondly, I need to openly admit to You that I know my faults are mine. The enEmy has been upon me. Yes. O'LORD only You know what all tHEy have done against me, against my Brothers All, and all the snares tHEY set for us both while tHEy were upon us and even now that tHEy are gone. Never-the-less, at no time did anything ever come against me that isn't common to man in this day and time. My Lord, at one time my heart flowed so freely in You... in the simple times of great and wonderful ignorance. It is so easy to raise my hands unto You, God, when the times are simple, smooth, and unknowing in the ways of the world, thus the enEmy that now seeks us out. But I am so sorry that when tests came my way, instead of keeping my eyes and heart on You, Father, I instead eventually turned my mind from You that I may have things my way, which I always knew were not Your ways.

My loving, mighty Savior and my Lord Jesus... I kneel before You this morning recognizing my own self to be above no other. I feel akin to David, in that I have never lost my love for You? But I have also been too willing to compromise Your instruction... compromise Your ways, to satisfy a dark and twisted flesh. I no more deserve to have Your Tent round about me than David did. In so many ways I have fallen. And not only has it been me that I have influenced, but a great many of those around me, some of which have relied upon me to be the man YOU have called me to be, O'LORD. I have failed them. I have failed against my own self. I could not even carry out my wicked desire for revenge against man and enEmy alike because You would not allow the most eVil of my desires. My ways have been made useless because my eyes were not upon You and my heart rebellious to Your way. In all my ways, You know them all, I have failed You... my Lord. So many ways I have failed You when I could have stood strong and unwavering with You by my side if my eyes were but upon You...

Lord Jesus... I am sorry for taking advantage of You... for taking advantage of all You've given me, ...for turning my back on You in so many ways... and for thinking You would be there for me no matter what. Which You are. Your faithfulness cannot be comprehended my the human mind in a state such as mine. But I am sick in that sorrow, my Lord. My heart is sick. I am sorry, yes, but moreso, I repent. I have so many crooked ways round about me, Lord. Only You can straighten my ways. In every major way I am not a conduit of neither Your love, Your forgiveness, nor in understanding and wisdom. I have puffed myself up in my own eyes and become a fool in my heart. I repent, my Lord. I repent. Enable me, oh Holy Spirit. Once again have reign in my heart and mind. I give this unto You.

I once thought myself void of pride and have found iT at every turn within me for years now, Lord Jesus. I know better now what You detest iT. There is nothing good within it... nothing good of iT within me. Yet iT still remains. Purge me of my pride. Give me Your knowledge, Your WISDOM to use that knowledge. Some things are more than I can bear within myself. I ask Your remedy in those things too, Lord. Soooo many things must be righted for my life to reflect Your image, O'LORD. Please bring that back to me... grant me all that I need within myself so I can simply be a reflection of You to this hurting and dieing world. I know that's my only purpose here, God.

My family needs the person of knowledge, wisdom, love and leadership that You, Yourself have directed among us. My lord Jesus... I have not been that man for a very long time. I know that You are the Father of the fatherless... and though my grandchildren are not exactly so, I know they are in Your divine care. Give them the mother and father upon this earth that they so desperately need... that can show them Your ways, Your love... Show them that You are right there as they cuddle under Your wing, Father God. Restore my entire family to that which is even beyond what it used to me, in the way we looked to You for our answers and our life.

O'LORD, I have spent my time with fools that opposed me unaware...and I have learned thEir ways. In many ways of this flesh, tHEy prevailed against me of my own accord. I have put thEir ways into the practice of my life. I have loosed my flesh upon other men that tHEy may know the pain of which I have felt, provided by the eVil oNe, but consciously submitted myself to in secret. I, myself, bow in repentance before You, Father God. I no longer wish to lend myself unto eVil purposes.

You have placed Your foot upon the throat of mine enEmies, O'LORD... Grant me now the power to do the same within my mind and heart. I pray for my Brothers All in this same regard. Grant me power over darKNess that lingers, intending to influence my life is ways that are not Your ways. Enble me with the power to also crush this darKNess... to purge it from my mind and heart and restore my soul, my mighty and loving Savior...my Lord... Jesus Christ. On my own I cannot rebuke any eVil. But with You standing for me, Oh LORD, even the deMons in hell and on earth cower and shake...tremble with fear with but the sound of Your voice! In YOUR MIGHTY NAME, my Lord JESUS, rebuke these influences of darKNess from upon me, my life and all those associated with me! CONTINUE to put not only my enEmies, but Yours also, to shame with the testimony of whatever life I have yet to live upon this earth. I ask this for myself and my Brothers All, Lord Jesus.

I am so needy. I have nothing of my own volition to offer. But that's why it amazes me to know that in my own weakness (which is a drastic understatement in description), You are made strong. I do not expect these things of myself, oh Lord... But so many times Your gifts have fallen right out of the sky... present on a morning where they were not the evening before within me, this is what I continue to expect and ask for from You. Divine intervention of the most personal kind is my reliance, Lord, God. I will look, listen and pay attention to anything...whatever You direct. Direct my steps, O'LORD. Lead me, and I will follow.

I cannot express my thankfulness for the things and the people You continue to bring into my life that minister to me when I deserve absolutely nothing. For these willing vessels I also pray, that they continue to be blessed by Your direction and wisdom... that You protect us all mentally, physically and spiritually... Lead us all, remind us to keep our Armor on and our Swords at the ready, our shield held high that guard us from the oh so many fiery arrows of our adversaries...

My Lord... precious Jesus...The Christ... The God of Abraham, Matthew and Michael... thank You for hearing me and providing me a way to Your Throne through the most loving Sacrifice ever made for any man.

Bless us, Oh God... Bless us... with the things we know we need, but also with the great many things we know not that we need, that we may live the lives you wish us to live...

In Jesus' Precious Name... to YOU, O' My LORD GOD only will I EVER pray...

Thank You, Father God... Thank You, Lord Jesus... and my thanks for the Holy Spirit who teaches us all things...

Amen and amen.

Praying for me:

Father God, I lift to you my friend and Brother, Matthew. He has endured years of persecution, years of oppression because of his love for You, and now You have delivered him out of the hand of his enemies. You are with him as a Mighty Warrior, and now his enemies have been disgraced and fallen away. Matthew cried out to You in his pain and anguish. His foot was slipping, but in Your unfailing love, You supported him.

Father God, we see the corruption in this nation. Can a corrupt throne be allied with You? is*am bands together against Your children and condemns them to death. But You, O LORD, have become their fortress, their safeguard, their stronghold. You are the Rock in whom they take refuge. For You are a great God, the great King above ALL gods. For all the gods of the nations are but idols, but You, O Lord, made the heavens! All will bow to You. Every tongue will confess that You are LORD.

Ascribe to the LORD, all you families and nations, ascribe to Him glory and strength. All will worship You in the splendor of Your holiness. All the earth will one day tremble before You. A day is coming when You will judge our enemies. Zion hears and rejoices, and the villages of Judah are glad because of your judgments, O Lord. You are Most High over all the earth! You are exalted far above all gods. They are but dust between Your toes.

Father God, make Matthew's way straight before him. His enemies have twisted his path and filled his heart with darkness. The heart of his enemy is filled with malice. Their throats are an open grave. His eyes grow weary with sorrow. They have poured their darkness upon him and he cannot see. His mind is a dark and dreary land. His heart is a somber place. It's choked with bitterness and pain. His body is safe but his heart and mind remain imprisoned. The memory of his enemy is with him.

Away from Matthew, all you who do evil! For the Lord has heard his weeping. The Lord has heard Matthew's cry for mercy, and the Lord accepts his prayer. May Matthew's enemies be overwhelmed with shame and anguish. May they be brought to their knees in repentance. For those who do not repent, may even the memory of them perish.

Father God, lift Matthew up from the gates of death that he may declare Your praises on the mountains, and there rejoice in Your salvation. The nations have fallen into the pit they have dug. Time is running out. Their feet are caught in the net they have hidden. The wicked are ensnared by the work of their own hands! They will go down to the realm of the dead, all the nations that forget God. But God will never forget His children; the hope of the afflicted will never perish.

The is*am in his arrogance hunts down Your children and they are caught in the schemes he devises. Their mouths are full of lies and threats. Their deceptive ways are not hidden from You. is*am lies in wait, and from ambush he murders the innocent. His eyes watch in secret for his victims. Like a lion he lies in wait. His victims are crushed and they collapse under his strength.

Arise, O Lord!! Lift up Your hand, O God! Do not forget the brokenhearted. The waters have come up to Matthew's neck. He is sinking in the miry depths of is*am's poison where there is no foothold. The floods engulf him. He is worn out calling for help. His eyes fail looking for His God. Those who hate him outnumber the hairs on his head. Many seek to destroy him. They are gone in body but present in spirit, as thick darkness which chokes out the light.

Father God, in the time of Your favor, in Your great love, O God, answer Matthew with your sure salvation. Rescue him from the mire, from the mental and emotional sludge is*am has left in his life. Do not let him sink. Deliver him from is*am, from the deep waters. Do not let the depths swallow him up or the pit close its mouth around him. You have rescued his body from the grave, but his heart and mind need renewal. His foes have left traps in his heart which to this day ensnare him.

Father, make Your saving help to be Matthew's shield. May Your right hand sustain him. Keep his way secure. Your way is perfect, O LORD. Your word is flawless. You shield all who take refuge in You, for who is God besides the LORD? In Your goodness You reached down from on high and took hold of Matthew. You drew him out of the waters and rescued him from his enemies, his foes who were too strong for him. You rescued him because You delight in him. You, O LORD, are the Most High over all the earth. You guard the lives of Your faithful ones and deliver them from the hand of the wicked. Your light shines on Your children, and Your joy on the upright of heart.

My Brother Matthew and I rejoice in You, O LORD, and we praise Your Holy Name because You are worthy. Let the heavens rejoice. Let the earth be glad. Let the sea echo in praise, and all that is in it. Let the fields be jubilant, and everything in them. Let all the trees of the forest sing for joy, and all the inhabitants of their branches. Let all creation rejoice before You Lord, for You are worthy. We ascribe to You the glory due Your Name. We will sing to You a new song. We will declare Your glory among the nations, Your marvelous deeds among all peoples.

Amen & Amen