A note to self: 07-10-2015

I don't know exactly what to say about the beautiful day outside. It's very sunny... Mid-80's, kind of humid. Just tough enough to keep my candy-retired-butt inside doing stuff like this, sitting around writing notes to myself, lol. I surely hope this doesn't grow on me. If there's two people I can't get away from in this world, it's me and Jesus, HAHAHAH...

God's been taking us a ways here lately. Hasn't He? It's kind of nice... or more than nice... almost extravagant to have such time and circumstance along with more peace than any man would normally be allotted on this earth... to ponder God, His ways, His heart, His will, His hands, His fierceness upon the necks of enEmies, His love from His heart to mine. So large are the things of God that the mind cannot comprehend Him. I try. I do try. I try every day to wrap my head around Him, and can't. Then I try again the next day, and yes! I get further... but always... I have to try again tomorrow, to go yet further... And then again the next day, and the next... and the.........

As my Brothers gathered together over the sea of Galilee for prayer and direction, my heart was with them. My prayer went up. And now that they work their work there, my heart and prayers are still with them. How I long for the day when I think on my Brothers All no more. I will think of them not because I will be with them. We shall do together. We'll pray with each other. We'll worship with one another. We'll love and adore our Lord with one another. Together we will be and oh, what a day that shall be.

I look forward to my future glorification... not because I'm particularly eager for the obvious... although I do look forward to having a body that never tires, always energetic and having that~~nervous energy that always bubbles to the top when you're getting ready to put something real good to paper. But also I look forward to my new vessel because, after I have been transfigured into who I'll be forever and ever, I'll no longer have all these crooked paths behind me. I'll never again take a crooked way getting to where God wants me to go. I'll never again hurt another in any way, shape nor form. From then on, I'll be a blessing wherever it is that God puts me. I wonder just how many worlds He has out there just like this one we live in?

Fascinating.

So much pain and suffering in this world. It was good to finally realize that there truly is purpose in every tear... every bit of blood spilled... every life taken Home... all of it. So much purpose in pain and suffering. Yet, it is hard to bear. I pray for all the Christians in and all around Syria... All the little children that have Jesus and the ones that are going to have Jesus. I pray for all the men and women there that already have Jesus and the one's that will have Jesus. I have been so blessed...so spoiled... I cannot imagine life living under such persecution, trying and wanting to protect my family... provide for them... and knowing I could not rightfully do neither. How I'd be able to live with that I have no idea, save I put us all in God's loving hands.

Oh God.... Father God. I know that already, before I write these words, You hear the crying of my heart as it lives and breathes the life in Syria. Please Father... For those that must leave this world according to Your all-knowing plan, please grant them all a Brother to escort them Home to You. For those that must remain, grant them ministers to sustain them in word, truth, ministry and physically. Let not the enEmy mark them with darKNess from their encounters. But rather, cast back the shadows as is in accordance to Your will in these end times.

Let the redeemed of the Lord say and know so, oh my Lord. Let those that will be redeemed say so... let even our enEmies also say that the Lord Jesus Christ, His Father, God, the God of Abraham, Isaac  and Matthew, and so, so many more!!! .... is the one and only true God that has ever been. For You will show Your great might in the middle east at this time oh Lord, and this side of the world will never know it. But all is as You wish it to be. All goes according to Your plan, which you mapped out and testified of long before the foundations of even this earth on which we walk.

I am not alone. NONE of us are ever alone. Thank You, Father, for going to such great lengths to show me this. Thank You for watering my heart when I truly thought it dead.

Show me, my Lord.  Show me more...

My Lord...

My Lord...

I come to You this morning in complete thanksgiving of all You have bestowed upon me. How could I look upon my life and not see the blessings of Job upon me and so much more in that I have eternal life and love in and with You, Lord Jesus? Anything worth endeavor, is You, Lord. Anything worth love, is You. Anything worth treasure in any way, is You. And so You have given unto me daily, in deed, purpose, family and fellowship.

I thank You for this freedom You've brought to us all, Lord Jesus. But i also thank You for your gentle correction when we step out of bounds within that freedom. Not all things are profitable for me, nor others, but You have a network at work upon this earth, parts known and yet others unknown...and they help me to keep from straying too far in a land with no boundaries.

Your love, patience, kindness, gentleness, knowledge and wisdom give me pause daily as I try to wrap my mind around who and what You are, my Lord. I can't. But I try. Each day I try again. I never can get there, but daily I go further into Your heart and You into mine.

Lead me... tell me, Lord, and I shall follow. not because I have to, but because I want to. You have given me something deep inside that I cannot contain within myself, even as hard as the enEmy tries to convince me to sit down and shut up. If You insist on using someone like me, the least I can do is lend myself to it. I am honored. Thank You, Lord Jesus, for Your gifts to the undeserved. My eyes, on You, Lord Jesus.

To Thee my Lord Jesus I pray....
amen.

My Lord...

O Lord, I call upon You; hasten to me! Give ear to my voice when I call to You! May my prayer be counted as incense before You... the lifting up of my hands as the evening offering.

Set a guard, O Lord, over my mouth... Keep watch over the door of my lips. Do not incline my heart to any evil thing...to practice deeds of eVil motivations or distractions with men who do iniquity... And do not let me eat of their delicacies.

Let the righteous smite me in kindness and reprove me. It is oil upon the head. Do not let my head refuse it ^... still my prayer is against their wicked deeds.Their judges are thrown down by the sides of the rock and they hear my words, for they are pleasant.

As when one plows and breaks open the earth, our bones have been scattered at the mouth of Sheol.For my eyes are toward You, O God, the Lord. In You I take refuge. Do not leave me defenseless.Keep me from the jaws of the trap which they have set for me and from the snares of those who do iniquity.

Let the wicked fall into their own nets while I pass by safely.

To You, my Lord Jesus... I pray to Thee...